One of those weeks....

Do you ever have a week that everything seems so disheartening and honestly down right sucks?!? Well that was my week:( Throughout the week, things progressively got more discouraging. I knew the right thing to do was seek the Lord and praise him despite how I was feeling. I began to seek him and praise him but He felt so distant? I kept pressing in and yet still did not feel his presence. I went into Friday knowing I was going to be leading worship that night. I was in no way ready to lead others into worship when I myself was not able to enter into worship! I battled it out with the Lord the whole way to church! I entered into worship striving to sing despite how I felt. As we worshiped, prophetic words were being given. One of the worship leaders turned to me and began to prophecy over me. Right then the presence of God came over me and I felt the depth of his concern and love for me! Even when it doesn't seem like God is there, and it seems like everything is falling apart, God has a way of breaking through all of the doubt, all of the hurt! Wow, we serve an awesome God!!

"I will praise you in the storm and I will lift my hands, for you are who are no matter where are am. And every tear I've cried you hold in your hand. You never let me go..."

Fall

This fall school year started a few weeks back. I always look forward to this time of year. I love all of the leaves changing, the crisp air, the anticipation of Christmas! I mean what is there not to like about fall?!?

This past week has been so exhausting, but so good. God even through difficult circumstances has granted me such peace. My brother Levi was diagnosed with Chron's disease two weeks ago and since has been in and out of the hospital very sick. It is so hard to see someone you love go through such pain. He has been so positive. It will be nice to figure out what all of this will entail for his future. Please keep him in your prayers!

In my business it has been hard for me to find time alone with the Lord, but I praise the Lord that He is so faithful even when we aren't! He has been teaching me to look to him through all of life's confusing circumstances. It's so easy to look at the things you are facing day to day and get overwhelmed with life's decisions. God keeps showing me though, if i keep my eyes fixed on him,all these other things will fall into place!!!