One of those weeks....

Do you ever have a week that everything seems so disheartening and honestly down right sucks?!? Well that was my week:( Throughout the week, things progressively got more discouraging. I knew the right thing to do was seek the Lord and praise him despite how I was feeling. I began to seek him and praise him but He felt so distant? I kept pressing in and yet still did not feel his presence. I went into Friday knowing I was going to be leading worship that night. I was in no way ready to lead others into worship when I myself was not able to enter into worship! I battled it out with the Lord the whole way to church! I entered into worship striving to sing despite how I felt. As we worshiped, prophetic words were being given. One of the worship leaders turned to me and began to prophecy over me. Right then the presence of God came over me and I felt the depth of his concern and love for me! Even when it doesn't seem like God is there, and it seems like everything is falling apart, God has a way of breaking through all of the doubt, all of the hurt! Wow, we serve an awesome God!!

"I will praise you in the storm and I will lift my hands, for you are who are no matter where are am. And every tear I've cried you hold in your hand. You never let me go..."

Fall

This fall school year started a few weeks back. I always look forward to this time of year. I love all of the leaves changing, the crisp air, the anticipation of Christmas! I mean what is there not to like about fall?!?

This past week has been so exhausting, but so good. God even through difficult circumstances has granted me such peace. My brother Levi was diagnosed with Chron's disease two weeks ago and since has been in and out of the hospital very sick. It is so hard to see someone you love go through such pain. He has been so positive. It will be nice to figure out what all of this will entail for his future. Please keep him in your prayers!

In my business it has been hard for me to find time alone with the Lord, but I praise the Lord that He is so faithful even when we aren't! He has been teaching me to look to him through all of life's confusing circumstances. It's so easy to look at the things you are facing day to day and get overwhelmed with life's decisions. God keeps showing me though, if i keep my eyes fixed on him,all these other things will fall into place!!!

Two girls in the hood...

So Andrea called me the other night and she was in need of a new car (hers was totaled and she received insurance money to purchase a new one) by the weekend. So I told her of my mechanic friend who had two cars he was selling and she thought she should check them out. Since I knew the mechanic and knew what it was like to try finding a car by myself, I offered to go with her. So here we are, downtown Mpls, in the ghetto(my hometown ya!) at night, two girls, making decisions regarding which car she should buy.(is anyone laughing yet?) It was quite an experience let me tell you! I don’t think either of us will ever forget it. Sometimes you just got to do what you got to do…
Girlfriends Rock!!

When God Speaks!

Tonight I went to a praise and prayer service. I heard about it from an aquaintance and didn't think I would go, but then today I really felt the Lord wanted me to go. I am so glad I did! God totally spoke to me and blessed me beyond what I could have anticipated. It is so amazing to me how God wants, desires and cares to pour out his love on His children. I went tonight just seeking His presence. God has showed me that there are still areas that I need to recieve healing.
As you draw closer to Him he begins to reveal the deep, dark things of our hearts that only through Him can be changed. Tonight was a night of healing! Praise the Lord. He is so good and loving. I praise Him for the journey He is taking me on. I am so excited to see my calling unfold. Oh Lord, in your presence is fullness of joy and healing! Jesus you are our healer, our Savior, we recieve all that you want to reveal to us!

Garage Sales.....

Ok, so I had my first garage sale ever! If you have ever had a garage sale before you understand the incredible stress that word induces lol. I recently moved and needed a fresh start so I thought it would be good to downsize and get rid of a few things.....Well, let me tell you that ended up being alot more work then I had expected! This week has been one of the most busy weeks of my life! On top of work I was trying to get everything organized for the garage sale, sell my car, help with worship at my church ect.
Yes, stress to the most extreme. Do you ever over commit? Hmmmm, why do I stress myself so lol
This week though, God has showed himself to be my strength when I literally had none! He is so good! I was able to sell my car, make a profit on the things I sold and survive the week! Yes, overall it was a good week. Thank you Jesus:)

Update!

It's been awhile since I've been on here.....
Well the past few weeks have been crazy busy. I am in a band called Eternal City and we did an outreach last weekend. One hundred and fifty people were saved! Praise the Lord. It was a fun experience for me. At this time I also am helping lead worship at my church. It is such a great church and to be apart of the worship team is awesome! I feel so blessed to be able to lead others into the place of ultimate worship and praise before the throne of our king!!

So now that I caught you all up, I would love to share a little bit about my day. Do you ever wake up and head to work thinking, ok, just make it through the day.... Well that was me this morning. I barely had a voice as I headed off to work. I work with preschoolers so it is imperative to have a voice! It was a long day and I had a few hours left and all of a sudden I turned around to see my brother Joshua standing in the doorway with something in his hand. Immediatly my heart became happy and refreshed to see him! It's always nice to have unexpected visitors. He brought me a super yummy cookie. God just showed me through my brother today how much God himself wants to lavish his love upon me! Just as a brother, mother, boyfriend, husband display in different ways acts of thoughtfulness and love how much more does our heavenly father/lover want to shower us with amazing, thoughtful acts of kindness! Thanks Josh for the cookie:) It was great and your visit made my day!!!

Summer

This summer is going by so fast! I can't believe it's almost July.....Wow Fourth of July is right around the corner. After work last night I decided to stop by the River downtown(it's right on my way back home)and go running. It was the most beautiful night ever and I was in the mood for a good run. I never go running there anymore because of past memories.....but yes I decided to give it a go. It was such a refreshing run. As I was coming down the hennepin bridge stairs I passed a girl and she looked at me and I looked at her and we both stopped. We knew we knew each other somehow, but how? It was quite funny! Then we remembered we went to elementary school together. It was so crazy how God brought us together. God loves to amaze me and show me that he is in ultimate control of all things. He loves to surprise us, every person we run into, every thing that happens when we aren't even looking for it, happens because there is something bigger at work then ourselves!